Wednesday, December 14, 2011

14th day

For the first time in 2 weeks, I'm back in my room.

(had refused to sleep in my own room because I am scared. and the room reminds me of Adel too much)

Now, I'm lying on my bed, with her pillow underneath my head. Where are you girl? I'm really depressed.

Last night, a butterfly (or a big moth) flew in. I sat on the floor crying and looked at it for a period of time wondering if it's Adel. It stayed quite still and didn't fly elsewhere for afew hours.

If it's her, she would be able to see how we are coping and dad is sick.

I held roven up for her to see but there was no reaction. I know it seems stupid but I'm desperate. I miss her so much. I have so much to tell her. I blame her, for sticking to a guy like him and ended up with this fate.

No longer rational to think. I have a paper tomorrow and I haven't even started on it. Adel, you're affecting everything. How heartless and cruel can you get?

Why won't you come back?

** updates :

1. Mr Tharman had already sent out letters to the various departments on Monday (according to my knowledge)

2. Lawyers have already drafted up the legal letters

3. IO texted me at 12pm today and asked for the videos that have been circulating among the netizens. (guess he have already receive the letter from Mr Tharman regarding the videos)