Friday, February 03, 2012

Lost it forever

They say, it would be better for me if I delete everything.
But I don't feel like lying to myself.
The truth is I miss her. I miss her alot.

Just 10minutes ago, I accidentally deleted her whatsapp conversation with me.
I feel like killing myself. It was weeks of conversation with her and they are gone just like that.

By reading my previous entries of happy life, shopping queen etc, do you think that I am really happy inside?

That night, I dreamt of her again. She was sleeping right beside me.
I woke up for school and she woke up for work.
I kept asking her to avoid cooperation road, I told her I dreamt of her accident.

I kept asking her to avoid cooperation road.
I kept asking her to avoid cooperation road.
I kept asking her to avoid cooperation road.
Non stop.

She told me okay. She really told me "okay".

I woke up, and she's not there with me.
I was alone on the bed.

It was just a dream. My sister left.

Stop crying Maybeline. Don't cry.