With love,

Would you eat this?

2012-02-21T23:08:00.001+08:00

The snake tattoo

2012-02-21T20:41:00.001+08:00

Adel's boyfriend went to tattoo a snake from his left chest to his shoulder with her name inside.

Snake because adel was born in the year of snake. He said he want to remember Adel forever.

As time goes by, I can no longer bring myself to blame him for what had happened. In fact, I couldn't really bring myself to blame him after the wake as well.

It was an accident. The pothole was the main cause of it. It was the trigger.

I am glad that Adel was truly loved by this man as well other than her family members during her stay on earth.

So many stuffs happened lately. If she's here, she would have taught me what to do. I need a talk with her. I need her to appear in my dream.

Before everything happened, a beautiful butterfly flew into the house and stayed for more than 12 hours. We could even touch it. Everyone said it was a warning. She might be here for a purpose. Said bye to it when I woke up the next day for school and something happened that very night.

If you know about my place, you would know that it is not possible for a butterfly to fly all the way up.

I am so tired. I am not a superwoman.

为了你好

2012-02-20T19:07:00.002+08:00

我不心痛吗？真的吗？
只有你们心痛？
我对他的感情，心疼，会比你们少吗？

真的要等到他走火入魔才做该做的事吗？

我只是要报仇吗？
他了解我，如果他说是就是。我不避解释。

I will do what I have to do to keep you safe.
All for your better future.

Wala Wala

2012-02-20T02:26:00.001+08:00

To truly love and trust someone is to give them your heart knowing that they can break it.

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Met up with my mates for a chillax & drinking session at Holland V.
Since it wasn't very far, I went out in shorts and slippers.

The pizza was only so-so but the rest look kinda good.
What's surprising was they don't have any GST or service charge!

Anyway, I went out with swollen eyes that night so I did not take much photos.

Fell

2012-02-19T22:03:00.003+08:00

Down.

So scary, that I personally find it disgusting.
The one on the left is about 4-5 fifty cents coins size in reality.
Pain.
Very pain.

Sarcasm is sweet

2012-02-16T09:36:00.005+08:00

This is actually something quite personal.

***This happened just last year.

What do you do if you had a very good friend whom you can call a brother since 10years ago? The both of you can go shopping together and meet up for meals. And when help is needed, you will offer help unconditionally?

And things just changed when he became a compulsive drinker. He brought your guy and a few friends to Thai pub/disco at least once a week. And oh btw, he got hooked up with a Thai girl as well of course. Instead of repaying you for helping him in the past, he did huge damages to you.

Can you still call him a bro when he exposed your boyfriend to these and perhaps even got him a thai girl? What about all the good friends 10 years ago? Long gone. I will never forgive him so long as I'm breathing.

The coward don't even dare to pick up or reply messages from me & bro-in-law.

Know what the Thai girls in Thai pubs are for? Hooking up guys who can pay for their everything. And if they're lucky, they might get to marry one of them and become a Singapore citizen. And why do the guys here visit Thai pubs, because they can't get a proper girlfriend in Singapore. (oh come on, admit it) having a girl in their arm boost up their confidence. It is so fucking pathetic that I feel like dropping a tear from them. ;)

People may find me overreacting, but they shouldn't, because they don't know the full story. The truth is 10x worst than this.

Hi, I hope the next time round you get to kiss, make out or even have sex, i pray that she's a transvestite. Woah. Perhaps that would be the biggest drama in your entire life. Hahahaha. Kiss hard, take off clothes and go "OMGGGG Y U HAVE PENIS? SAME AS ME???!!!

At the same time, I'm quite amazed by my friend, D.L of his strong willpower. :) not everyone is as hopeless afterall. Restore faith in humanity!!

*I can reveal name and photos of the coward if you want yo. Cause I'm bitchy just like that. Most of my friends should be smart enough to know who though.

And you? Coward. Don't wanna reply? Escaping from the problem? You don't even have the right to be mad at this entry, look at who's the coward first.

Sneak preview

2012-02-14T22:17:00.003+08:00

Have been receiving a number of comments in formspring asking me to sell some clothes.

Here's one example!
Brand New, baby pink chiffon and full lining.
Got it off the boutique months ago but never wore it out before.

Good stuffs are worth waiting for! *kidding :D

Stay tuned!

URGENT

2012-02-13T22:30:00.001+08:00

Can anyone help?
How do I get back all my photobucket pictures in my blog?

simmaybeline@gmail.com

THANKS IN ADVANCE!

Sexy back

2012-02-13T18:04:00.002+08:00

So, I got posted on a forum last night. Apparently, everyone thought that I was a xmm (xiao mei mei). Lol. I have a face too young. Maybe when I'm old(like 30years old), people will only take me as 25! Yay! What's bad is someone actually digged out pictures (at least 2-3years old) to post. LOL

Main focus of this entry is this dress!

I like the back of the dress.
But the front's kinda plain. Nothing much.

XOXO

I think I look kiddy when I smile showing my teeth.

Tired face after a long day at work.

Pain is secondary.
Emotions is primary.

Physical pain hurts lesser than emotional pain.

xoxo

2012-02-13T00:45:00.001+08:00

Goodnight darlings.
Hope you guys had a great weekend.

We'll fight Monday blues together!

Need more sleep to get rid of the dark circles.

Tiny pieces of heart

2012-02-11T20:32:00.000+08:00

Le sigh. My photobucket account's bandwidth is down. Exceeded.
How long do I have to wait before all the images are back? Anyone know?
Because I have no absolute idea so I am using another account to host all the pictures now.

My favourite bracelet - For now :)
The quality's good as well!

Breakfast with Le Mom.
Didn't manage to wake up last Saturday so I'm making it up to her this week.

Hot coffee in the morning.

Reflection.

KFC egg tarts.

Popcorn chicken! Best snacks ever.

When you're dressed down, you're not supposed to act cute :(

Neon pink shades.

Bukit Timah Hawker's Duck noodles. Quite nice yo!

Not so nice carbonara :(

FYI, you can't leave any comments at any entry.
Comments or questions can only be left at my formspring! :)
Click here for Formspring.

What type of Singaporean are you?

2012-02-11T10:16:00.006+08:00

Ever ask yourself what type of Singaporean are you?

Are you the typical, "aiya, take it easy lah" or the "wah, got sales, I must chiong there now" kind of Singaporean? (of course, these 2 are not the only results)

"It's My Turn" is a simple online quiz that analyses your personality to find out "What kind of Singaporean you are?" If you find the first result not-so-accurate and it does not describe you well, you can take the quiz all over again. There are different personalities to describe all the different people in Singapore.

1. Go to the web "It's My Turn".
2. Login via Facebook (to see your results. don't worry, it won't be publish on your wall if you didn't pick that option)
3. Take the quiz.
4. Check your results!

As easy as ABC. There are only 10 questions in the quiz and it will only take you no more than 3 minutes to complete it.

So, I took the quiz...

Aren't the options cute? LOL! When people are fighting, and you go "We are Singapore.........." and in your heart, you're pray for them to realise that we're one nation. Stop the fight!

and this is my result!

Take it easy - Chill first, Worry later - VERY ME! *Wink

Why so? Because I have the tendency to leave things till the very last minute. Enjoy my life away first. I'll always go, "Take it easy yo, I still have 2 weeks left" and I'll start to panic when I am only left with 5days to complete and assignment. I believe this is what most Singaporean do as well right? Our very bad habit!

Visit "It's My Turn", take the quiz and share your results with me now! :D

Greenwich V

2012-02-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

Was invited to Greenwich V's grand opening in the evening today.

The hosts of the evening was Vernetta Lopez from Class 95FM and Joe Augustin from Lush 99.5FM.

I love the exterior design of the mall. All the dining places in there are good for chilling! They have Cedele, Chinta Manis Peranakan Patisserie, Mai Thai Restaurant and alot more. The interior design was pretty nice as well! I chilled at The coffee bean for nearly 2hours. Really love the ambience there. I am looking forward to the opening of awfully chocolate there because it is quite near my school. Can chill and hangout there anytime.

Even the exterior design of the kopitiam looks good too.

Does this fountain remind you of the one in bugis?
Kids love them!

Clowns and carnivals. Food, snacks, drinks and etc were served.

Green and white balloons represent Greenwich V!
Before the start of the cutting ceremony.

and Up up up, they go.

Outfit of the day.
My new navy blue maxi dress matched with a choker.

Greenwich V is located at :
1 Seletar Road Singapore 807011.

How to get there?
Bus 70, 70M, 103, 854 (alight opposite Seletar Hills Estate, Yio Chu Kang Road)
Bus 70, 70M, 86, 163, 854 (alight after Jalan Kayu, Yio Chu Kang Road)

Free shuttle bus service is available.
Check out more at www.greenwichv.com.sg

Just three things

2012-02-09T22:11:00.005+08:00

Firstly, flights are booked and paid! :D

Secondly, Been so obessed with my weight that I weigh it at least 3 times a day.

1 - The first thing I wake up
2 - After a meal
3 - Before bedtime

And lastly, I am on a butt firming plan now! Pray that it works.

This guy ate my sandwich when I wasn't looking. And that was my only dinner!

Alright, look at my dark circles and eyebags. Needa sleep now!

Just for laugh

2012-02-09T18:46:00.001+08:00

Anyone saw this in 9gag too?
HAHAHAHA.

24hours in a day

2012-02-08T17:26:00.007+08:00

Have no idea when was this picture taken.
Probably accidentally pressed it while daydreaming in class.

ICA is really efficient.
They emailed me and told me that my passport would be ready for collection tomorrow.
Heading down to collect my passport and then to the agency to book my flight to France, Paris straight.

Thursday's packed.
Friday's worst. School > Assignment > Event.

So many things to do, yet so little time.

Strong front

2012-02-08T17:07:00.005+08:00

Dislike the idea of being home alone with Adel's gone.
Here's a bear for you. Now, take it. Hug and cry.
But remember to smile after that.

I don't cry on the outside anymore (at least not infront of people) but that doesn't mean I am strong.
Crying doesn't mean I am weak either.

[ADV] Valentine's Day Special

2012-02-07T21:03:00.004+08:00

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Orders/questions, Contact Daren at 93555107.

Cheap thrills not

2012-02-07T18:24:00.001+08:00

Know what sucks most?
When you bought something at regular priced and a week later, it is 50% off.

:@

Anyone going for the new shopping mall opening this Friday? :/

And I hate how insensitive people can get. Whenever they saw me or my parents, they will start asking about my sister and how things are now. The best is they can't stop asking once they start. It's like rubbing salt on our wounds. This isn't concern. Not when they don't even take our feelings into consideration in the first place.

Cause if you really care, you wouldn't even talk about something that will hurt us. So dear friends, I hope you know what to do now.

Meet ma new shoe! :D

Talk that talk

2012-02-06T18:29:00.002+08:00

Don't you feel happy when the little things you do can make someone happy?
Satisfied 'customers' replies makes me happy! :)
2 more sold items to send out tomorrow.

Maybe I should set up an online shop myself.
But I don't know where to get all the supplies from :/

Awkward face in the morning. Like literally just woke up. Mini eyes.

Dressed down.
Thought I lost this pair of jeans. But it was sleeping in Adel's luggage.

Men-ichi Ramen again today! Slurps.

I'mma get it right on the first try for you
Cause you ain't never had a woman like me, yeah
And you will never have another like me, yeah

Cyber wars are too mainstream

2012-02-05T21:04:00.004+08:00

Sunday breakfast with the fam.

Baby tic tac!

Bought a new pair of shoe.
Can't wait to show off the pictures here. I have a fetish for shoe.
Just kidding ;)

Because cyber war in twitter/blogs are too mainstream,
Youtube war is the new IN thing!

Singapore's favourite Ah Beng Aaron Tan is back! And he is pissed with Steven Lim

Aaron Tan Is Back - Powerful Video Response By Superstar Steven Lim

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Almost cleared

2012-02-05T14:39:00.005+08:00

Thanks for clearing my accessories!
The items are more or less finished.
Might be adding more. Do check back ;)

iPhone's front cam again :/

I am the laziest person on earth.
This is my favourite mask and I only mask once/month.

Bought 3 tubes to share with Adel because she love it as well.
But now.............

:)

Done with my passport. Waiting for the letter now.
THE UGLY PHOTO IN THE PASSPORT IS GOING TO STICK WITH ME FOR 5 YEARS.

Update again later :)

Short note

2012-02-04T20:18:00.003+08:00

The best revenge is to move on and get over it.
Don't give someone the satisfaction of watching you suffer.

On the other hand, Valentine's Day is coming.
How are you going to celebrate yours?
Please let this year be better than last year's.

Lost it forever

2012-02-03T23:35:00.003+08:00

They say, it would be better for me if I delete everything.
But I don't feel like lying to myself.
The truth is I miss her. I miss her alot.

Just 10minutes ago, I accidentally deleted her whatsapp conversation with me.
I feel like killing myself. It was weeks of conversation with her and they are gone just like that.

By reading my previous entries of happy life, shopping queen etc, do you think that I am really happy inside?

That night, I dreamt of her again. She was sleeping right beside me.
I woke up for school and she woke up for work.
I kept asking her to avoid cooperation road, I told her I dreamt of her accident.

I kept asking her to avoid cooperation road.
I kept asking her to avoid cooperation road.
I kept asking her to avoid cooperation road.
Non stop.

She told me okay. She really told me "okay".

I woke up, and she's not there with me.
I was alone on the bed.

It was just a dream. My sister left.

Stop crying Maybeline. Don't cry.

Furkids & Vet

2012-02-03T18:25:00.002+08:00

After bathing Roven, mom observed some pus on the tissue on the left ear.
Quite particular about his health so tadahhhh, he's back to the vet again.
@ Bukit Timah. The only vet which I can trust.

Waiting for my turn.

Camera shy *blush*

Too many big dogs. Better get out.

*hides at one corner* while having his weight measured.

Told you SHY la.

In the consultation room.

Huh? What?!

*shivers*

Mommy is being very irritating. *grrrr

1 dalmatian out of 101!

Try spotting him in this picture.
He wouldn't come out and play because he was the smallest there.

Going to shave him botak again after his lab results are out next week.
Botak because his last grooming session was 4-5 months ago (I think).

Adel, Don't worry about him.
I will take very good care of him :)

Collage x

2012-02-02T20:16:00.003+08:00

Bringing Roven to the vet tomorrow.
He's down with ear infection (I think).
Shoes & Manicure.
Can't tell much from the pictures. Pale pink base with glitter.

Need to renew my passport ASAP(by tomorrow) otherwise I won't be able to book my air ticket next week.
London, Paris etc. Alnwick castle and Durham cathedral = Hogwarts castle. I'm coming.
I remember Adel going "SO GOOD! Help me buy Chanel & LV back okay?"
How much I wish you're still here meimei.

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I'll be adding more stuffs to sell soon. Please check back! ;)

For Sale

2012-02-01T18:33:00.010+08:00

Suede Pearl detachable collar
Didn't know I ordered 2 of this until the other one arrived later.
Brand New @ $19.90
Good suede quality with Pearls.

SOLD

Topshop coin pouch
Brand new @ $7.

Studded Handbag/Clutch/Sling bag
Brand New @ $20
The strap is adjustable/removable.
I would use it as a clutch if it's me.

Studded Sling/side bag
Almost brand new. Only used once @ $18.

Email to simmaybeline@gmail.com if interested!
Thank you. XOXO.

Shopping with Uni mates

2012-02-01T11:58:00.003+08:00

Hello! We're at the second month of 2012 now.
10 more months to the end of the world. You think so? Nahhhhh.

Ignore the tummy and messy hair. I just untied my hair from a pony tail.

iPhone's front camera, hence, low quality :(

My pretty melayu baby friend. Hahahaha.

Best friends in school.

My feet got so tired from the killer height platform shoe so I had to get another pair of slipper from Town.
From All the little thing she needs (I think).
SO CHEAP!

Pretty shoe makes me happy!

One last picture before I bath.

Hello Kitty Chocolate Pops!

My parents & friends have been complaining that I lost a lot of weight and my face look so bony now = Scary & ugly.

I don't photoshop my pictures so what you see is what is me.
Is it really? I don't think so! Which part of it is bony?

Checked my weight and it is still the same as last month.
No weight lost what. What's with the drastic change?
It's like, suddenly, people started to tell me that out of nowhere.

-.-

I think I look normal & my face is far from bony. What about you?
Honest opinions please~ :'(

Winner of giveaway

2012-01-31T20:34:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the delay.
& Here's the winner of the giveaway!

Ms Jia Ying Ho!

NYS Toner Giveaway

All the emails were just so damn good. :'( I was stuck between quite a few.
If I had more of it on hand, I would give it to all of you.

:)

Thank you for all the emails!!!

Heavy downpour

2012-01-30T19:59:00.000+08:00

Received very efficient replies from the lawyers.
But sometimes, what they replied are not stuffs that we would like to see.
Whatever it is, I believe they will do their best to help us.

Adel, look after everything from above. Okay?

.
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I look fatter. Right?
:(

From the dear sister. Just 1 week before the accident, she was showing this to me happily.

Other than Japanese cuisine, my second favourite is Zi Char!

See's candies from Las Vegas.

Order a pair of shoe from a blogshop but Y YOU NO REPLY ME?

Am going to post more accessories/stuffs to sell soon.
Stay tuned! :D

Good days are over

2012-01-29T22:23:00.002+08:00

The family went to visit Adel again.
We really really miss you, meimei.

Peter Pan Pearl Collar from Janice. Thank you dear.

Semester 2 is starting tomorrow. Good luck to me.

xx.

Gambling den

2012-01-29T13:55:00.004+08:00

Gambling den at Qi's place last night.
I love her place because there are 3 dogs in her house!
Too bad, the puppies were upstairs sleeping.
Only had Lucky, the golden retriever. Love him still!

11 legs, played for nearly 5hours and thank god, didn't lose any.
:D
Everyone stayed near her place so they came in home clothes except me :/

Did a bit of shopping before that.

When I left for home this morning, I nearly got tailed by a sickening pervert.
God damn it. Don't wanna go home at such timings again.

Can never understand why some people love commenting at stuffs before getting facts right.
Yes, Mr/Ms Know-It-All. No doubt. I am refering to you.
The one who left a I-know-everything comment regarding the giveaway in my Formspring.

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It's Ren Ri today. Chu 7.
Happy birthday everyone!
:)

Tomorrow is the last day for the giveaway.
Remember to join in! ;)

NYS Toner Giveaway

2012-01-27T23:57:00.004+08:00

New York Skin Solutions Exfoliating Toner worth S$59.92
Brand new in box & package. Big bottle at 120ml.

Exfoliation involves the removal of the oldest dead skin cells on the skin's
outermost surface, and has been used for many years to help maintain skin.

Adel has a lot of products which are brand new and untouched.
Have already given away nearly S$500 worth of products.

So here's one for you.

Just email me at simmaybeline@gmail.com and tell me why should I give this to you.

EG : You should give it to me because "I can't resist beauty products".
EG : You should give it to me because "Toner plays an important role in my beauty regime".
EG : You should give it to me because "I read your blog".

The lucky person will be notified by next Monday.
Have fun! :D :D :D

White day

2012-01-27T19:06:00.003+08:00

Gambling den tomorrow at my favourite clique's place.
Finally, It's LNY - for me.

Adel left me 2 mani, pedicure package. About $500 odds in total.
How can I finish it all my myself?

Maybe I'll just pick someone to enjoy it with me.

Requested : I know you miss her too

2012-01-27T10:48:00.000+08:00

Requested in Formspring.

Adel is one very independent child.
She started working part time at the age of 17 because she wants to play.

To her, working part time is like knowing more friends and she gets to spend more time outside.
If you ask her friends, you would know that she is one very bubbly girl.

One of her 'bad' point is that she loves to talk/ask NONSENSE to people whom she is comfortable with. But it is also because of this, people find her funny and easy to talk to. She gets along with people well, unlike me.

So many friend of hers turned up at the wake during the 3 days.
Primary school, Secondary school so on and so forth.
Especially her colleagues and supervisors, everyone came after work in their uniform.
I can't forget the sight.

I really miss this bubble sister of mine.
I miss laughing with her on the bed.

I miss her take videos/photos of me when I am asleep.
Sometimes she does this, laughed like mad at the picture and woke me up to look at what she had done.
Crazy little sister.

Please be fine wherever you are.
Dad dreamt of us last night.
You, me and bro. We were wearing paper boat hats and painting the walls with him.
(We were only 6-7 years old in his dream)
All we ever want was just a happy family.

I don't understand why god had to take you away from us.

Lesson learnt

2012-01-26T19:07:00.001+08:00

It's a lesson learnt.
You don't have to be nice to all your friends because they might not do the same to you.

Just last year, a good friend of mine tried to borrow $700 from our surrounding friends.
No one lent it to him. As soon as I knew he was in need of money, I volunteered to lend him the $700 since we were quite good friends.
Of cause, the first thing he did was to return me when he got his pay without me rushing for it

However, this year, I approached him for help. *not monetary issues.
He gave me shit. He fed me with lies and went MIA.

Honestly, this kind of disappointment. You know?
No, I don't think so.

What's the point of being nice to some friends?
When you put them in the front line, you can actually still be at the back in their list.

No longer the same

2012-01-25T21:18:00.003+08:00

CNY really wasn't the same without Adel.
The mood in my family was so intense and moody.
We didn't do any visiting. Went for movies, food and etc.
Just some quality bonding time within us.

Exams will be over tomorrow. I wanna party soon.
Forget all the torture, remember only the good.

Bought quite a few new stuffs. I wanna show offfff sooooon. Kidding ;)

Been studying for the whole afternoon today although I was sick.

This was my supper last night.

Baby with his puppy eyes.

Tea time at Delifrance.

Tonight's dinner.

Have you tried Men-i-chi Ramen yet?
Free Upsize yo! I don't mind having this every day.

Remember to help me clear these okay? Click here.

Thank you for following me on Twitter.
5 bots unfollowed and 9 humans followed.

Sincerely hoping that everyone had a great CNY.
Happy Lunar New Year people! xoxo.

Tomorrow, at 5pm

2012-01-25T17:24:00.001+08:00

One last paper to go for tomorrow and I am done with this semester.

Wish me luck! xx

I'll be back tonight!

Just asking

2012-01-24T11:34:00.005+08:00

Would anyone want iPhone4/4s covers if I do a giveaway on this?
Adel has alot of them, Brand New.
Me myself? I have more than 15 for mine.
If I add Adel's in, it will be too much for me.

1 more follower to 400! Follow me! :D @maybelinesim

Teary new year eve

2012-01-22T21:16:00.004+08:00

Busy day today.
Sent the Sold Items out in the afternoon,
Visit Adel to send her her share of reunion dinner.
They are all her favourite food, along with her favourite strawberry milk.

Love this new top. Love the material & the leopard scarf that comes along with it.

Pleast help me clear my remaining accessories! ;)
Click here
THANK YOU!

Follow me on Twitter : maybelinesim

Suede Pearl detachable collar

2012-01-21T22:10:00.006+08:00

My current favourite collar is here! Damn love.
High quality and goes well with almost anything.
AHHHHH. SO HAPPPPPPY.

I can do a pre-order for this. Let me know if you are interested!
$19.90

Try looking for the almost same quality stuff in Town, would cost you at least $35 :D

Email to simmaybeline@gmail.com :)

Clearing my accessories

2012-01-21T19:30:00.011+08:00

ALL ITEMS ARE BRAND NEW UNLESS STATED OTHERWISE.

Dark Coloured Rock Bracelet
Brand New
$7
SOLD

Pearl Rose Heart Choker
Brand New
$8
SOLD

Round Alloy Choker
Brand New
$10
SOLD

Beaded Tie-String Choker
Brand New
$12

Vintage feather Choker
Brand New
$10

Smexy Red Lips Bracelet
Brand New
$5
SOLD

Peace Bird Cross Bracelet
Brand New
$6

If you're interested in purchasing any of the item,
Please email me at simmaybeline@gmail.com
Looking forward for the mails! XOXO.

Pre-CNY

2012-01-20T16:03:00.001+08:00

Even though there is no CNY celebration for my family this year,
I still went ahead to get some new clothes.

Saw alot of pearls/beaded detachable collar necklace.
Must say that they are really beautiful stuffs!

One of my detachable collar arrived.
Not those fanciful ones which you can find in the street.
Just a plain looking collar but it is quite useful when it comes to matching clothes.

Oversized wool cardigan from H&M.

This dress is for lunar new year Chu 1.

Just done clearing my clothes.
I have A LOT of Brand new clothes that I don't think I'll be wearing them anymore.
Give it away to Salvation Army, dump it away or do another giveaway here?

Have already emailed the person who will be receiving the GEO Lens. XOXO.

Depression or not?

2012-01-20T12:35:00.003+08:00

可不可以永远都长不大,永远都不懂事

If not for my parents, my family, the thought of leaving them,
I would probably go and keep Adel company in heaven.

I have been sleeping with my parents ever since 1st Dec. I can't bear to sleep in our (Adel&me) room. Every time I take a step in, tears will start flowing. Just stepped inside and I am all messed up again.

I am getting more and more scary each day that I actually don't mind dying.

Say, (drama now) IF IF IF, mom suggest to the family that she'll whip up a poisonous dinner for the 4 of us. Once eaten and we'll only have 2hours to live. And 2hours later, we'll join Adel in heaven, I would put up both of my hands in the air to support this :) The 5 of us belong together. 幸福和快乐的一家

I don't wanna grow up and tell my children that "You have an aunty, but she passed away at 21years old"

*My mom won't do this, so no worries.

I would die for Adel, I would gladly take her place.

You know, the left picture on her tomb kind of look like me.
Been hearing this from quite a few friends.

我的心很痛
妹妹死的很可怜

Retribution

2012-01-20T12:06:00.000+08:00

Looking at the comments in my formspring by people after reading my blog gives me teary eyes. Even as a total stranger, he/she could totally relate to my pain.

The thing is, how will the law deal with the people/company who is/are responsible for the pothole?

Don't you think that it is pretty easy for them to just pay a sum (small sum to them) of money and just get over it?

Say, IF the ones responsible are from the government department?

Just because we are just some minor peasants in Singapore, it doesn't mean that our life is worth lesser.

Honestly, I can't find peace at all. I want justice done. I want justice done for my sister's death. For my parent's loss.

I blame everyone responsible, those who played a part in her death. I hate them. Fucking hate them to the core. But when I see jx (driver of the integer), I can't bring myself to blame him. Afterall, the main cause was the pothole. It was what which triggered the accident FIRST. I don't even know how did I get all the courage to give him a tight slap during the wake and got all reported. Over grieving I suppose. But that doesn't mean I can forgive him either. I don't rule out the fact that he was speeding (confirmation after the report is out).

I'm just so fucking lost. I can do alot of shopping, watch alot of movies, eat all my favorite food, but deep down I am just so fucking lost.

Is this just some joke from 'just for laughs'? Or a terrible drama showing in the television?

The title should be 'A family tragedy'

Waiting for the next season to be out. I hope it's 'Karma'. Otherwise, 'Retribution' will do just good too.

The Descendants 2012

2012-01-18T21:40:00.009+08:00

I rate this move 4.5 stars out of 5!

The movie title sounds like some ancient or war movie. But it was actually a moving story of a Hawaiian family who had to face the fact that their mother, who had been in coma and depending on life support for the past 7 years, has to be put to sleep. Upon removing the life support, Matt King, the faithful and loyal husband found out something. He takes his daughters on a trip from Oahu to Kauai to confront the young real estate broker. It was a very touching movie.

Synopsis:
From Alexander Payne, the creator of the Oscar®-winning SIDEWAYS, THE DESCENDANTS is set in Hawaii and follows the unpredictable journey of an American family at a crossroads. Matt King (George Clooney), a husband and father of two girls, must re-examine his past and navigate his future when his wife is in a boating accident off Waikiki. He awkwardly attempts to repair his relationship with his daughters - 10 year-old precocious Scottie (Amara Miller) and rebellious 17 year-old Alexandra (Shailene Woodley) - while wrestling with a decision to sell his family’s land. Handed down from Hawaiian royalty and missionaries, the Kings own some of the last priceless virgin parcels of tropical beach in the islands.

When Alexandra drops the bombshell that her mother was in the midst of a romantic fling at the time of the accident, Matt has to take a whole new look at his life, not to mention his legacy, during a week of momentous decisions. With his girls in tow, he embarks on a haphazard search for his wife’s lover. Along the way, in encounters alternately funny, troublesome and transcendent, he realizes he’s finally on course toward rebuilding his life and family.

Official trailer: Link

Actual 49th day

2012-01-18T17:46:00.000+08:00

Only had 5 hours of sleep and was forced to wake up by my parents for Adel's 49th.

The two photos are already up on her 'tomb'.
Addition of new stuffs are always seen whenever I visit her.
Fresh bouquet of flowers, new Melody toys, candies, drinks & food.
They are probably from her friends. If you had paid her a visit, Thank you.

Reached the place, saw the photos and started sobbing badly again.

The photos were quite badly done (in my opinion).
I don't like how they cropped the picture. Look at her hair. Disappointed.

The driver of the integra, best friend and some friend went over as well.

I don't believe in god. But I said a prayer anyway.
"If Adel is suffering at the other side of the world, please let her be free.
I am more than willing to bear everything for her. Just so she could be safe and happy"

But FUCK YOU anyway. You can take away lives so easily.
So many deaths were reported everyday.
My parents are the kindest soul in the entire world.
My dad never turn down any old people who asked for a meal, or help.
My mom has been doing kind deeds all her life and constantly help the older people in the neighbourhood.
What did they do to deserve this? FUCK YOU.
You don't know the pain and suffering of her loved ones.
You didn't even give her the chance to visit TW.

Listen, I don't care if karma strikes me.
Losing my sister was one of the worst thing that could happen to me.

Went to M1 to settle her line after everything because we received a letter to pay for her termination fee when we were told that it was FOC when death was the reason.

The kind guy resolved the matter and waived the phone bill for November :)

Adel,
Whever you are, please keep us in your mind.
JieJie.

A break from the exams

2012-01-18T01:42:00.000+08:00

3rd paper down. 2 more to go. This Thurs & next Thurs.

Brough Meryl for the movie invite by OMY.SG for The Descendants.
AWESOME movie. Review later.

Long tiring day. Woke up at 8am and this picture was taken at 10.15pm

Movie ended at 9pm and most of the shops were already doing closing.
So we went in to H&M.
WE ARE HAPPY GIRLS.

Pathetic leaf choker *INSIDE JOKE. But, bitch please.

New favorite choker. Love it!!

Eiffel tower keychains from Paris.

So one day, I was bored and decided to take a 1hour bus journey when a car ride will only take less than 10minutes.I was the only person in the upper deck! #likeaboss

My granny came over to cook for my family last weekend.
I don't quite know how to face her because I failed to protect my sister.
She rushed to the A&E on the day itself and cried like mad.
Can you imagine a 70 odd year old granny sobbing terribly? Doesn't your heart ache?
Adel & me dote on her alot. She would visit this granny and pass her money from time to time during her off days.
How many grand daughter do this?
Still, I wanna say, FUCK YOU GOD.

Show me the light

2012-01-16T18:01:00.001+08:00

Still can't come to term that I wont be able to see Adel anymore.

Just done with the most tedious paper. Dad called to fetch me home. Mom called and asked if I want dinner. I wanted to tweet that I really love my family. I couldn't bear to press enter because family includes Adel. I really loved her. Deleted the tweet in the end because my family isn't complete now.

I am not coping well with my exams as well. I would rather spend my time on her bed, crying and missing her than to read through my notes.

One of my paper was half blank. The paper I did last Thursday.

Today was slightly better as I spent 3weeks studying for this paper.

Dad seems okay now but I know he's not. He has been talking a small amount of alcohol every night to help him curb insomnia. Mom looks okay too. But she cries when shes alone.

Me? I always cry at the thought of her or when I'm alone at home. I can't even bear to use her stuffs. She got SO GOD DAMN MUCH of brand new clothes/bags/watch. I'll always remember her running to me and showing me her new watch from her dear colleague, Josephine, who got it for her for her birthday. It was an advance birthday present. She wanted to wear it on her actual day but....

Anyway, I told my dad, if I fail any of the modules and is required to repeat the module, I'll either quit or defer school. It's too tough. It was a great blow.

Bless me.
xx

Adel's 49th day

2012-01-14T16:09:00.002+08:00

Adel's 49th day is on the 18th Jan.
Ritual will be carried out at 10.30am sharp.

Friends of Adel, if you want to be there, please drop me an email/text.
Thank you.

P/S : Adel was spotted at her working outlet last week by a colleague :'(
Again, can I believe in such things?

.

Look at my new iPhone covers!
Happy girl!

First choice

2012-01-13T22:20:00.003+08:00

I may not be perfect. I may not be everyone's first choice,
but I'm ME and I don't pretend to be anyone else.

Thank you!

2012-01-13T19:24:00.003+08:00

I sincerely wanna thank everyone who emailed/formspring-ed me to show concern & guide me along with what I have to do.

I am extremely touched by the long emails from you people.
One kind soul from Malaysia even taught me what/how to do regarding the dream that Adel said she had something to say.

Love you people much. xx.

GEO Lens Giveaway!

I have a pair of 0.00 degree GEO lens to give away.
CK-105
Suitable for girls who wants big dolly eyes.

Email to simmaybeline@gmail.com with your name.
Will pick one person to give it away!

Im a Sennheiser Girl!

2012-01-13T10:12:00.002+08:00

Let's go jogging to keep fit!

Yeap, that's a tank top from Sennheiser. Heh.
Daniel from Sennheiser went "Don't jog with that. Free publicity!" LOL.

Morning people,
may your day be as good as mine. X.

P/S : anyone on Path as well? Add me! Maybeline Sim.

More colours for the lips

2012-01-12T17:51:00.002+08:00

Someone told me he/she doesn't like me with red lips in formspring :(
What to do? Buy new colours lor. *KIDDING :D

Got a pink & a nude for mommy.

I wanna do IPL for my skin. I want a clearer and better face.

Any skin doctor or place to recommend?

Contraband 2012

2012-01-11T19:02:00.007+08:00

Thank you OMY.SG for the movie invite to Contraband.

3 popcorn out of 5 popcorn.

Mark Wahlberg is back in the big screen again, "Contraband" is an action/thriller where Chris Farraday (Mark Wahlberg) shows how a genius runner of his time quiting the scene for his wife Kate(Kate Beckinsale) and son but was forced into saving the younger brother of Kate whom screwed up while running for a drug smuggler who threatened to kill his whole family. This move also showed us the love a family can have.

Contraband presents not only a nicely crafted remake, but also shows a wisely made criminal thriller, which is fun to watch. This film unveils the dark side of the modern smugglers life facing a lot of challenges with staying alive and keeping healthy those, who are dear to them. Sharing a part of illegal activities, this risk makes them use all their skills to stay on board.

More reviews click here

Synopsis
Mark Wahlberg leads the cast of Contraband, a fast-paced thriller about a man trying to stay out of a world he worked so hard to leave behind and the family he’ll do anything to protect. Set in New Orleans, the film explores the cutthroat underground world of international smuggling—full of desperate criminals and corrupt officials, high-stakes and big payoffs—where loyalty rarely exists and death is one wrong turn away.

Chris Farraday (Wahlberg) long ago abandoned his life of crime, but after his brother-in-law, Andy (Caleb Landry Jones), botches a drug deal for his ruthless boss, Tim Briggs (Giovanni Ribisi), Chris is forced back into doing what he does best—running contraband—to settle Andy’s debt. Chris is a legendary smuggler and quickly assembles a crew with the help of his best friend, Sebastian (Ben Foster), to head to Panama and return with millions in counterfeit bills.

Things quickly fall apart and with only hours to reach the cash, Chris must use his rusty skills to successfully navigate a treacherous criminal network of brutal drug lords, cops and hit men before his wife, Kate (Kate Beckinsale), and sons become their target.

Smacking red lipstick

2012-01-11T14:53:00.002+08:00

I look girly, I dress girly, buy trust me, looks are deceiving cause I behave like a man. *kidding

I have pride as high as a guy though. (to people around me except family)

In my parents' eyes, I am forever a young girl who can never take care of herself despite being the eldest child. I like to run to them with the slightest problem. Adel was the most independent. She stopped asking for allowance at the age of 17. If there's anything that I am really proud of, it's her. She took care of me really well.

Well, back to the main topic.

I BOUGHT A CHEAP HOT RED LIPSTICK TODAY.
Never thought I would buy one although a lot of girls look good in it.
Only $5, so why not? Just give it a try.

Am I the only one who has never heard of NYX before?
So much for being a shopaholic, yet I don't know about this.
The stuffs are SO CHEAP OMG!

In your opinion, do you think Red lipstick suits me?
Same position, same face for all 3 photos :X

I wanna buy a pink one too. Can I look sweet please? :D

Dreams are fake

2012-01-11T09:08:00.002+08:00

Last night, I dreamt of her again.
I know it is because I think of her every night before going to bed.
She didn't visit me at all.

Been crying to bed recently.
The whole accident, ambulance and A&E kept appearing.

I dreamt of the accident again last night.
Again, she didn't die. But she was going to.
She had severe internal injuries and the doc said that she only had afew months left.
I was crying. She hugged me and cried together. No words exchanged at all.
And the damned alarm went off.....

Every night is a torture.

I have been strong for too long. It is time I breakdown too.

Even this baby here.

2012-01-10T22:50:00.001+08:00

Told you, we are all missing her.

Everything is beautiful

2012-01-10T09:33:00.001+08:00

Updated via blogger app, pictures not in order.

Decided to dress all the way down and was quite stuck on what to wear even though it was just a simple dinner at HK cafe for Janice's birthday. This lucky girl's birthday falls on the 1st of Jan. So on 31st Dec, the entire world countdown with her.

Tried CupWalker for the first time and I think it's kind of ... Erm, not to my liking. The attractive part was the price I guess. $1.60 for a large cup of pudding milk tea. 30cents for additional pudding or pearl.

OKTEA anytime for me over this. OKTEA has very very nice pudding milk tea, you have got to try it if you stay in the west!

Designs for your nails

2012-01-09T21:24:00.002+08:00

Simple different designs on ma nails over the years.
Quite lazy to dig all of the pictures out.
Enjoy these! You can DIY all these at home yourself for the coming CNY ;)

O.P.I shatter

DIY glitter french

Cowards

2012-01-09T13:59:00.001+08:00

Know the problem with human?

They are not helpful at all. So many stopped to look at the accident but none stepped out to voice out. None came out as a witness.

Everyone is afraid of trouble, having to record statement and whatsnot. If this happened to you, and the one who was involved in the accident was your next of kin, how would you feel knowing that so many saw yet no one came forward.

"Aiya, also not my problem. So busy body for what?"

Not your problem then whenever there's some accident, why do you even slow down to peek at what happened?

It is this selfish mindset that humans have. When a life was lost and all they could do was to keep their mouth shut and avoid unnecessary trouble.

Except for the kind soul who recorded the video of the pothole. He even came to and saying that he is willing to help, anytime and gave me his contact so that I could give it to the lawyers.

I am not particularly referring to just this accident. I believe this is the same for all the cases out there. Trust me, if it's me, I would behave exactly like what the kind soul did.

Yes, no one is obliged to help. No one owe me anything. But you will never understand unless something similar happens to you as well.

Selfish, cowardly human beings. I am not afraid of offending the world since I can't bring Adel back anymore.

All over again

2012-01-08T23:26:00.002+08:00

Had a talk with Dad until 3am last night.
He drank a little and got all emotional again.
Tears just kept flowing because...

One of my uncle rang us up.
"Adel came to me & asked for permission to enter my son's body.
She kept insisting that she has things to say"
and he was shocked awake after that.

For the few hours, my dad kept saying 妹妹很可怜，我听了很痛。

The cousin that she wanna "enter" is only 3-4 years old and he is a Sim too.

I don't know how much we can trust dreams. I don't think dreams are real.
But I can't explain how fake it is as well.
There is no hardcore evidence to prove that this dream is real.
(although there are alot of things that can't be explained)

Emotional stuffs aside.

I love manicure. I'll do a post on all my past nail simple designs soon!
You can DIY for the coming CNY ;)

Plain glittery red nails. This was one of Adel's favourite as well.

The only China Glaze we use other than O.P.I

This is a feather duster, NOT.

Japanese cuisine.

Busy schedule

2012-01-08T12:55:00.003+08:00

4 reports submission due tomorrow.
Major exams in a few weeks time.
Adel's insurance claim replies (expected to be in by the 10th)
Movie preview screening on Tuesday.
1 review assignment on blog due on the 13th.

BUSY.

Blur baby just woke up from his nap.

Blog again later!

Meanwhile, keep the questions coming in yo. Here.

Spare me

2012-01-07T23:32:00.001+08:00

Had wanted to do a proper post.
But I'm all messed up inside right now.

I am only a human being. Can all these emotions please let me off?

Heartbroken

2012-01-07T12:41:00.001+08:00

Would you be interested to know about my love life?

I need a place/ someone to hear me out.

Show us your efficiency

2012-01-06T11:57:00.004+08:00

My mom woke up crying in the middle of the night.
#adelinesim

We received a call from DBS at 10.45PM last night looking for Adeline Sim Sin Ee.
I know about the DBS/POSB case. I watch the news.

But the weird thing is don't they have records that she had already passed on when we cancelled all her cards?

Aren't they aware that it is nearly 11pm, and people could be sleeping already?
Does DBS staffs really work till this late?

Anyway, I find the whole thing suspicious.
They ought to know that Adel had already departed from this world.
& why even ask for the card numbers on her cards?

Because of this call, my mom couldn't sleep.
She was reminded of Adel again.
When she finally fell asleep, She woke up 30minutes later crying.

It's the pain inside each and everyone of us in the family.

A colleague of hers dreamt of her and sent me a message :

In my dream, I was waiting for lift & she appeared standing next to me looking at me with a friendly gesture.
She was wearing a dark color top either a grey or black color cardigan & was carrying her LV speedy bag.
In my Dream, I was aware that she has passed on but asked her,

1. How's she is doing now?
2. Does she knows what exactly happen on e day of accident?
3. Was she smoking with her window down at that point of time?

She merely looked at me with no acknowledgement for the above questions asked.

Failure

2012-01-05T17:21:00.001+08:00

I failed as a daughter, I can't cheer my parents up.

I failed as a sister, for failing to protect Adel.

I failed as a mommy, who didn't realize that Raven was sick.

I failed in so many aspects. I feel kinda useless.

I have so many things to update you Adel.

Major exams in 2 weeks time and I'm still here crying over adel. I don't feel like studying anymore.

Is a degree really that important?

From Adel;

2012-01-04T18:10:00.003+08:00

This blouse was from Adel few months ago.
We went on a shopping trip, I picked this & she just paid for it without further words.

Everyone's busy shopping for CNY clothes except my family.
There is no CNY for us this year.
Even if there is, it won't be the same anymore.
I am not even looking forward to it.

Reunion dinner? How to have it when we are short of 1?
No one will be happy celebrating this festival in my family this year.

To the people I love, who loves me,
Please enjoy this festival double hard this year.
Enjoy my share as well.

xx

Please let me hit 43kg before CNY!

Formspring is up again. Click Here.

Dressy

2012-01-03T19:24:00.001+08:00

When I first met you, I truly didn’t plan on falling in love.

Leather shorts

2012-01-03T13:45:00.001+08:00

Just when I thought that leather shorts was common and easy to find.
I WAS PROVEN WRONG!

Went to bugis, town, blogshops and online webs to search for it but I couldn't find it,
When I finally found it at an unexpected place, Black and Caramel brown are out of size.

Saw it in New Look but they were only left with UK10.
How do you expect me to wear UK10? :(
But New Look had caramel brown.

Picture is not true to colour.
This is light brown. Not grey or beige.

Pardon my tummy. I don't have fantastic figure.

I had a dream last night.
I dreamt about Adel's accident.
But she was alive. She only suffered from a broken arm.
#wishthiswasreal

Come to my dream, tell me what you have to say.

I believe one day, we would all reunite as a family again in heaven.
A family of 5.

New year eve

2012-01-02T13:36:00.005+08:00

Shopping, BBQ, Games, Movies, Sleepover with the lovers.
Ice Wine, Dessert Wine, White Wine, Bacardi Breezer.

Changed into home clothes.
I have very a flexible face. HAHA

Remember me saying that I wanna get this?

I GOT IT NOW :D
A little different, but it can still bring out the same feel.
When I thought that it was quite a steal, Only $35 :O
Meryl bought it after me and the lady only charged her $30.
WTTTTFFFFF.
I hate salesperson like this because I only bought it 1minute before her.
NVM, because it's Meryl. She's my mehmehgirl.

Shoes, clothes & bags.
Women, they can never get enough of them.

You're so cute. I think I am in love with you.

Happy new year Adel.

Sennheiser

2012-01-02T13:21:00.001+08:00

Finally went down to collect this after a month.

CX 300-II White Precision

Thank you Sennheiser Singapore!
Saved me a hundred!

Removable collars

2012-01-01T18:11:00.002+08:00

This is going to a big hit in 2012! (My guess)
Have been looking for removable collar necklaces since I don't-know-when.
Whenever I came across it while shopping, it is either ugly or low quality stuffs.
(you can see the pearls falling off)

Don't you find them hip and trendy? I wanna lay my hands on these.
Just got 2 online. Waiting for them to ship to Singapore after the holidays.
I CAN'T WAIT.

If you ever come across this anyway, please let me know! I wanna get more :)

I am a sucker for fashionable stuffs, especially SHOES.

xx.

Witness

2011-12-31T13:24:00.002+08:00

Just came back from meeting one of the witness who saw the whole accident.
He was behind the integra and saw everything happened.

ADELINE DID NOT FLEW OUT OF THE CAR.

The witness told us something similar to my reasoning of 2 weeks ago.
Read here

She did not fly out of the car like what the newspaper had reported.
It was the fact that my sister was still sitting in the car when the car crossed the middle divider and to the opposite lane.

(let's assume, if the car merely spin to the other lane, both of them would only suffer from sight bruises)

It was when the taxi who came right at them which caused my sister's death. Everything happened so fast, she couldn't even run out of the car when the taxi came at her.

BANGED. She got hit by the taxi. (like I said, the passenger's side was totally wrecked) Door was opened. And being helpless, she rolled out of the seat when the door flung open and into the drain, next to the car.

She had already somewhat lost her conscious. She was trembling and her eyeballs looking up. The ambulance came and the paramedics kept talking to her, asking her not to sleep but she still closed her eyes in the end. There was no blood. She didn't bleed. Imagine all the internal injuries which took her life away...

** There are some points which I have kept to myself/family/IO because I don't want the driver of the integra to know so I can't share it here. His statement don't really matches what the witness told us.

Do bear in mind that this witness is neutral.

妹妹走了一个月

2011-12-30T11:52:00.003+08:00

I have alot of questions in mind for Adel.
How can I ask her all these? Where can I get the answers from?

1. How did you fell out of the car when the windscreen is still intact? Did you roll out from the door when the car stopped at the drain?

2. You were still moaning in pain when JX walked over to you. If you could still moan softly in pain, why wouldn't you wait for us to reach the hospital?

3. How did the strap of the Prada bag break into 2? Were you pulling on to it?

4. Was it very very pain to die in such a manner? Because our heart aches like mad even by thinking of how you had to go through all these.

5. Are you doing fine in the other world? How is it like there? Did you manage to find Raven?

6. Do you have anything to say to me or the family?

7. Would you come to me and let me know all your unfulfilled wishes? I would try my best to fulfill all of them for you. I would live for you.

8. Will you still remember us if reincarnation exist? (This was what Dad asked me last night)

9. You were always stronger than me in terms of every aspects. Why are you so weak this time round? How could you not struggle to stay alive for us?

10. Do you miss us as much as we miss you? Does it tears you to leave us like how it tear us apart to know that you're gone?

Every night, I go to bed with Adel in mind and wake up thinking of her departure again.

I tried so hard to pretend to be fine on the outside.
Be it on my face, in Twitter or Facebook, but they are all fake.

At the end of the day, We(my family) just don't want others to worry about us.
They always say "Life goes on" because no one can really understand what we are going through.

We were never okay with your departure.
Never okay with you living alone at the other world.
We are a family, so why are we apart now?

We miss you, terribly.

This or that?

2011-12-29T19:24:00.002+08:00

Would you believe me?

If I said I woke up at 3am because of Adeline's perfume?
She used to prepare for work in the morning when I was still in bed and her perfume spray would wake me up almost everyday.

The same smell woke me up last night.
Thought I was wrong but I wasn't.
I took a few deep breath. It was her perfume.

Was it a dream? Or did she come back?

Forever pain

2011-12-28T19:26:00.005+08:00

The pain in the chest when we opened the letter box and still receive letters of Ms Sim Sin Ee Adeline.

Suggested to Dad that we can go ahead with adel's birthday dinner plan.
Ordered her favourite chilli crab.
I hope she enjoyed her dinner in Heaven, while we're enjoying her birthday dinner on earth.

The family can't really move on.

.

Any blogshops to recommend?

Leopard prints

2011-12-28T11:15:00.000+08:00

Usually on a birthday, my family would make the birthday girl/boy treat the family to a feast.

Chilli crabs is a must have on birthday because it is Mom & Adel's favourite.
Everything's gonna change from now on.

People say you don't know what you've got till it's gone.
Truth is, you knew what you had, you just never thought you'd lose it.

Updates : Received 2 letters from the IO this week.
1. They have already received Mr Tharman's letter.
2. They have acknowledged and watched the videos of the pothole.
3. They had finally taken down the statement of the guy who drove the Integra ('boyfriend')

For comments & questions : Formspring instead of blogger. Thanks!

Christmas 2011

2011-12-27T21:56:00.000+08:00

Christmas Eve + Countdown to Christmas.
1 word. Wonderful.
It was the only day where I was able to shift my thoughts out of Adel for afew hours.

Shopping + Garrett Popcorns + Movie (We bought a Zoo) + Shopping + Chillax & Countdown.

We bought a Zoo was 2 out of 5 popcorns for me.
Anyway I only got a cardigan & a brown blazer from New Look.
H&M is having huge sales too!

Last minute decision, Countdown at Ice Cold Bar.
Londoners are so happening. Fun-loving is the best term to describe them.

The waiters were also quite proactive and friendly.
Would definitely go back there for sure.

Very tired faces after a long day.

This milk tea is rather disappointing :(

Photos from my Instagram (iPhone app) : maybelinesim

To my dearest sister who is living in heaven now,
Happy 22nd birthday. Stay beautiful & bubbly up there.
Remember to look for Raven.

xx,
your dearest jie jie.

Adeline Sim Sin Ee

2011-12-27T16:55:00.001+08:00

沈家永远的痛与骄傲-沈欣仪

Adel's 22nd

2011-12-27T10:09:00.003+08:00

Today is her 22nd birthday.
She couldn't live to spend this special day with us.

After visiting her yesterday, my family is back to square one again.
Dad's too sad. He couldn't sleep last night.
He just fell asleep at 9am. Not for long.

I know, it is because it is Adel's birthday today.
Heartache that his daughter had to spend it this way.
Departure is really one cruel thing.
I don't even understand why god came up with something so cruel.

I am going to visit her again today, on her actual birthday.

Happy birthday, My dearest sister.

PS : I saw many dolls/gifts/food on her place.
Saw afew people visiting her as well yesterday.
Adeline sure is blessed to have you guys visiting her. Thank you.

Hello kitty

2011-12-26T15:49:00.001+08:00

Her birthday in less than 9 hours time.
She would love this pair of specs.

Beer Market @ Clarke Quay

2011-12-25T23:57:00.000+08:00

Eve of Christmas Eve with the folks.

Beer Market :
Inspired by the stock exchange, Beer Market is the perfect blend of food, music and sports whereby drinks prices move up and down according to demand, creating an exciting atmosphere and interactive experience.

As said, stock inspired! The prices of the beer changes every hour depending on how much the specific beer was sold the last hour.

Warming up : Hoegarden

The place was quite cosy but I don't really like the music there.
Awesome live bands that night.
However, when there is no singer singing, the music kind of suck.
Thank god I was there with the right company.

Mehmeh & Me.

Richard bought us thess notebooks.

My Royce and biscuits from PQ.

Getting ready for the real thing.
Their food was quite good.
Love their normal fries with cheese dip!
We had 2 portions.
What's best? You get free refill for the cheese dip!

Beer Market's Fish & Chips.

Amount of shooters we cleared.
Sex on the beach & Illusion

Too little alcohol.
Couldn't even get high.
Can't even numb the pain Adel caused.

I wanna hit 43kg.
xx.

Childhood memories

2011-12-25T21:45:00.004+08:00

It's been a busy day getting her favourite snacks, and stuffs as we are going to visit her tomorrow.

Her 22nd birthday is on the coming Tuesday.

Look at the baby in the photo.
She celebrated her 1st birthday 21years ago.
Only 21 years.

I never liked showing my baby photos because even me myself, scares myself.
That's how pathetic I was.
I was an ugly baby :(
But here's one for you.
Adel had huge eyes since birth.
Her infant photos - 1 year are damn cute.
Even when she's all grown up, she still have huge eyes that she doesn't even need cosmetic contact lenses to enlarge it (although she loves them).
Not only her eyes. She had thick and long lashes too.
I love her eyes.

Look at her in the photo (please don't judge me).
She look so dumb. She look so freaking dumb and round.
I look like her ugly brother. This angel was freaking cute in the past.
呆呆笨笨的，每个人都很喜欢
Dad said "I wished all of you won't grow up. I want this to be this way, where you all will be stuck at toddler age. I wanna take care of you guys forever. 每天放工回来听你们叫我爸爸就够了"

One evening, Dad came home with some brand new bicycles for us.
One each, and brought us down to cycle.
We never really had to ask for anything in the past because he would get us whatever was shown on the TV at those days.
Barbie dolls, polly pocket etc.
We had very good childhood.

Picnic. One of my family's favourite outing until we entered Secondary school.

Dad and Adel, 15 years ago.

We were always close. Always. Even now, She's in my heart.

Can't remember where were we at.
But the guys are my cousins.

Floating market in Thailand.

The whole family and the maid went for Ice Skating at Jurong East.
It was hell fun. Our parents taught us how to skate.
We went for bowling quite often too.

Kite flying session.

We were always at the playground waiting for Dad to come back.

We had so many albums. A whole load of them.
Dad wouldn't look at those photos now (so I only flipped afew albums).
The pain is killing him. Little does he know, me too.

Been extremely moody the whole day today. Held back my tears.
Don't want them to see my cry. But tomorrow, ........

You're the best we could ever ask for.

Michelle Chong

2011-12-23T17:01:00.002+08:00

Before the baby photos.

In Twitter : maybelinesim

Adel tweeted that she wanted to watch @imMichelleChong's 一泡而红 after watching the trailer. She didn't get to watch it before she passed away.

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Michelle Chong replied me and then direct messaged me.

"Hello! I think we can DM already :) Are you looking for me regarding my sister?"

"Ur tweet made me tear. I wld like to give you a DVD (w a message to Adel) when it's available. Not sure if u've seen e movie, but there's a line in it that says 喜事变丧事,人生无常。we can't always control what happens to us. We can only make e best of it. Be strong k?"

I was so touched and so lost for words.

I am starting to see hope in this world again.

Wake up call

2011-12-23T15:23:00.005+08:00

You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see,
but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

Adel has very nice vocal.
I like to hear her sing even though it was very irritating in the past.
I wonder if she realised that.

She got this from Dad. My dad loves to sing alot.
I remembered how we used to sing Karaoke at home with Dad.

We shared the same room.
& When I on any song on Youtube, she would sing along loudly.
I have never asked her to lower down her volume before.
Never once have I told her that she has nice vocals.

People, tell the people you love what is in your mind, how much you appreciate them before they are gone.
Because I won't ever have the chance to tell her anything anymore and this is going to be my biggest regret.

I never thought that she would leave us so early.
I thought I would grow old with her.
I took all these for granted. Now that she's gone, it's all too late.
There's nothing I can do for her anymore.

She is also the type of girl, who would laugh so hard and roll on the carpeted floor/bed after a joke. To the extent that you don't even know what is she laughing at. (She does this quite often)

Like any other girl you see on the street. She has her bad points too.
She is quite bad tempered (better than me though) and impatience.
And she was once very rebellious during Secondary school days.
Everyone has their past right? What matters is how much we have grown from it.
Too bad, God didn't allow this angel to repay her parents longer.
He took her away when we least expected it.

It is not just 心痛 that we are facing. It's worst than tearing us apart.

How can she shift all the responsibility to me?
How can she walk away and pass our parents to me just like that?

Yes, we are getting a sum of money from the insurance after her death.
But that doesn't mean anything. She can't just give us a sum of money and go away.
We don't want the money. We want her.

I remembered the last time when we cried together.
It was during Raven's last hour.
I rang her up at work. Cried over the phone and told her that he only had afew hours left to live.

When I brought Raven to the clinic, the vet didn't tell me how critical Raven's condition was.
She just told me that your dog needs to stay overnight to flush his bladder and the cost of this and that etc.
They were closing at 5pm and didn't allowed me to stay so I went back the next morning to receive that news.
The vet could only kept apologising "I am sorry, I forgot to tell you how critical his condition was"

Full story here

Adel dumped her work aside, quarreled with her supervisor, encouraged by all her colleagues, she rushed to the clinic.

We kept hugging Raven. Touching his fur. We did everything, except drying our tears.

We are the type of people, who regard our pets as family members.
A dog is not just a dog to us. He was more like a baby/child in the family.

All these just happened not too long ago.
So where are you now?
Are you coming home soon girl?

I miss cooking maggie for you.

我根本不能走出这个痛。根本不可能。

Next up : Baby - toddler photos of us.

Denial attitude

2011-12-22T17:19:00.002+08:00

I thought I was strong, I was getting better.
But I was wrong, I was just living in denial.

Was alone at home yesterday and I cried for 2 hours.
Had to stop when my parents reach home.
Don't wanna trigger their tears.
What a sad life. I can't be weak in their eyes.

Adel's baby.

Was flipping through our baby - toddler albums last night.
We had a good time together.

Dad couldn't bear to look at the photos. & His pain just got worst.
I'm sorry dad.

Adel was an extremely cute baby because she had huge black eyes.
I will post photos of her childhood in another entry later.

XOXO.

Adel's kind deed

2011-12-22T15:45:00.005+08:00

Oh, I forgot about this until I saw twitter just now.
Another story of Adel for you readers.

The thing here isn't about money. But the heart.

There was this SUPER DUPER AH LIAN girl who goes round cheating her secondary school friends.

THIS IS NOT ME. I DON'T USE A SAUCER TO DRAW MY BROWS :)

No one contacted her for more than 4 years.
So few months back, she reappeared and cheated her classmates one by one.

"My grandma is sick. I need money to bring her to the doctor urgently. I can't afford it. Can you lend me $50 first?"

"Okay. What is your account number? Quickly bring her to the doc"

So when the opposite party is willing to lend her the money.....

"Oh, wait. I scared $50 not enough. Can you lend me $100 instead? Please. It is very urgent. My grandmother is very sick. I will return you one week later"

"No, only $50. Do you still want it?"

"Okay. Here is my account number"

One week later.......

"Hey YT, are you going to transfer me the money or?"

"Give me a week more. So sorry. Can you lend me somemore? Medications not enough. I will return you when payday is here"

"Nope, no more. Okay. Next week."

This goes on and on until she off her phone and deleted them off facebook.
She cheated almost 7-8 people already?
No one ever got their money back

Bet she used the money on drugs&ciggs.

(Adel only got to know that she was cheated after a friend told her that he was cheated as well)

LOL?

*Yay, All the stupid people are transferring money to my bank account! No need to work!*
What's best? Adel is dead! No more bug pestering me!

She abused Adel's trust.
Adel has this soft spot for elderly.

There was once where she saw this old uncle, pushing his bicycle at 12mn somewhere near home already (she was nearly home already).
She stopped the car and asked "Uncle, where do you want to go?"
Then she realised that the uncle wanted to push the bicycle to at least 10 busstops away so she sent him back.

Kind hearted isn't she?

That's why Adel was stupid enough. To lend her the money.

Her name is Ang YuTing. She calls herself Jamie by the way.
I am not typing this just to seek back the small money lost.
Some requested for stories of Adel. So here is one.

If I ever get bashed up on the streets, or killed,
You people know who to find uh? :)

Listened to the song she used to sing very often.
I can hear her voice ringing in my ear.
Tears wouldn't stop flowing. I don't wanna be so weak.
But as her 姐姐, I failed to protect my 妹妹.

I can't help but blame myself for what had happened to her...

UPDATES : A friend just told me that the girl used sex to exchange for money as well.

Walk with style

2011-12-22T12:29:00.003+08:00

Adel's 22nd birthday in 5 days time.
Don't understand how can God be so cruel to take away such a young life.
Way too cruel.

It's been nice receiving emails, asking me to be strong.
And also, receiving smses, telling me that they are visiting Adel here and there.
It is kind of heartwarming.
Anyway, I will be heading down to visit her on the 26th with my family,
and 27th (her actual birthday) with my friends.

You will never be forgotten girl.
I will grow old for you. Eat for you, and dress up for you.

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Adel's little stuff

2011-12-21T17:38:00.004+08:00

Some of you have requested for me to write about little stories of Adeline.
So here is one.

I know she has this Ah-Lian face. But no, she's not one.

This girl here is really a dear.
We went out last month and she said "I want to buy the OSIM massage chair for dad. The one by Andy Lau"
She told me to keep it a secret because she wanted to give dad a surprise.
The big mouth me went to ask dad if he wants one because it is kind of expensive.
I heard that it is >$5k (I don't know actually. Didn't google for price)
Dad : "太孝顺, how to not feel the heartache when shes gone?"

She took this picture with Roven during his first night at our place.

She bought me him just 2 days after Raven's death because I was devastated.
and in her eyes "close to depression".
I couldn't eat or stop crying for days. It was terrible.
Roven came but it didn't change much because Raven was my all.
Little did she know that, When I lost Raven, I only lost a kg.
But when I lost Adel, I lost 4kg in two weeks while dad lost 6.

This sister is cute.
When Raven came, she tugged Raven into the bed with her and they slept till morning.
(It's been long, but I will never forget that)
When Roven came, she did the same thing again. Roven was very sickening then.
Wouldn't sleep on the floor. He had to sleep on my bed for weeks all because of Adel.
What bad habit he had developed from Adel's pampering.

Tears are flowing down as I typed this.
It is a reminder of how wonderful this sister is.
I didn't get to grow old with her. I can't see her wrinkled face and her future kids.
Will they grow up to look like her if she had kids?

All these will never happen again.

Temp perm for her hair. She wanted to perm her hair after her birthday this year.
Just so for CNY 2012. It's gone now.

She took part in her company dancing competition and had to dress up as a boy.

Company D&D. She looks older than me. Doesn't she? :)

And I would like to thank the kind soul who sent me Adel's New York TV commercial.
I actually laughed when I watched the TVC again because right after the commercial, she came back telling me "I was so nervous! My face was so stiff that they had to change the scene!" She even showed me what she meant by stiff. HAHAHAHA. My silly sister.

When it was first cast on the Television, I remembered Dad and me called her to laugh at her. I could tell that my dad was proud of her.

How are you doing now mei mei?
Your Ma Bao Ling (she calls me this in chinese. no respect!) miss you.

Proud of you

2011-12-20T15:14:00.003+08:00

Watching the VCD New York Skin Solutions gave.

4 episodes of Adeline in Beauty Sense which was on Channel 5 last month.

We can hear her talk, see her move in the episodes.
It's like seeing her again.
They mean so much to my family.

She did a television commercial for them too.
Sadly, I can't find it anywhere.

Stupid sister. I paused on the stupid expression.

Packed Adel's cosmestic bag. There's very obvious thumbprint on her mirror. Mom immediately said "don't touch this, i wanna keep it forever"

A summary of the week

2011-12-20T11:59:00.004+08:00

Thank you for all the emails.
All 9 pairs of contact lenses are either reserved/given out.

Another thank you for those emails which came along with words of encouragement and asking me to be strong.

I will.

Actually, I have kind of move on a LITTLE already.
Trying not to think about her during the day.

However, last night, I dreamt of her again. It was a happy dream.
Life sucks when you're happy in the dream but you wake up to realise that "It is only a dream".
She's not here at all, she's gone. She only exist when you sleep.
Ouch.

Couldn't helped it. Look at her whatsapp and sent her "I miss you" even though I know she wouldn't receive it.

School organised a buffet-cum-party session for us for an advance Christmas celebration and as well as the last day of the semester.
I was too bothered with Adel's stuffs that I totally forgot about it so I dressed extremely down and went for the lesson and party.

Didn't eat alot.

Gelato Icecreams from one of the Dr.

Look! So dressed down. & I am not that short :/ She's at least 1.75m tall.
Pardon the awkward face.

Bought Garrett Popcorns on the weekends.
'Accidentally shared it with Roven because I dropped afew pieces on the floor and he ran over instantly'

My collection of the ultra cheap toy shades.

Clearing photos. Saw this picture. Know when was this taken?
When Adel and me sent Roven for his first grooming session and we waited for 1hour+ in the pet store.
I miss days like this with you, Adel.

Okay. This post shouldn't be an emotional one.
Ending it with...
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PUT YOUR LIMPS UP! PUT YOUR LIMBS UP!!!!!

Just some discussions

2011-12-18T21:41:00.002+08:00

I don't think Adel flew out of the car.

Went to the wrecked car, the passenger's side was totally gone.
Door was totally flat and you can't open/close it. You can totally swing it.

Personal opinion :

She was in the car when the taxi came right at her. Door was wrecked and it opened.
And she rolled out of the car after suffering from very severe internal injuries.

So, is the taxi still at fault?

For speeding(not confirm) and being unlucky (to be driving along that route when the accident took place).

The above is purely for discussion on my reasoning and understanding only.

Adeline Sim Sin Ee

2011-12-17T21:55:00.002+08:00

I FUCKING MISS ADELINE SIM SIN EE. I WANT HER BACK RIGHT NOW.
I have so much hatred for the driver.
So much that skinning him alive wouldn't make me feel better.

I guess by now, looking at how my parents are coping, Adel would have regretted sticking to a guy like him. A guy will protect you before protecting himself if he really love you. U can tell from the accident. Superficial love.

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Dad asked "was it painful to see the coffin move slowly into the fire & look at 妹妹 getting burnt?" closed my eyes. Fucking pain & cried.

Dad : 养了这么大的孩子，就这样给人家害死。

I could see tears in his eyes again.

I/We miss you, Adel. Alot.

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Yesterday, I saw something and this just came across my mind naturally/out of habit
"Woah, juicy. Must tell Adel after she knock off from work"

It was then, again, I realised that she is no longer coming back.

It just kills me to know that I won't be able to talk to her anymore.
I won't be able to go shopping with her anymore.
We won't be able to have heart to heart session before bedtime anymore.

What have the family done to deserve this?
We have done nothing evil all our life.
Absolutely nothing.

So burnt. So hurt. Too pain.

Is there anyway for me to get her back?

We should all just suicide.

I wanna laugh at your mistake

2011-12-17T21:11:00.005+08:00

Follow me on Twitter : @maybelinesim

PS : Your mistake is a joke.

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Email to zipdisk@gmail.com if you're interesting in buying domains or web hosting.

Side Note : I still have 4 pairs of lenses available up for grab.
Email to simmaybeline@gmail.com if you would like to have them.

Post gum contouring surgery

2011-12-16T21:33:00.000+08:00

Can you tell the difference?

LTA's Reply

2011-12-16T17:44:00.003+08:00

Someone emailed LTA and this was their reply.

The kind soul even emailed me the conversations between them.
Bless him!!!!!!

LTA's reply :

The "pothole" mentioned was found to be within the trench area that had been reinstated by the contractor of Singapore PowerGrid after their trenching work.

As the case is currently under investigation, LTA will take appropriate action against the contractor if it had indeed failed to comply with the conditions and requirements.

Source : HWZ

Roven is the last thing Adel left me.
I wouldn't know what I will do, if Roven didn't exist.

Contact lenses

2011-12-15T22:11:00.001+08:00

If you're 400degrees and would like to have these, please drop me an email!

They are brand new in bottle/box.

Bought quite a number of pairs of Adel before she ....

Would be wasteful if I throw them away because no one in the family has the same degree as her.

Have 9 pairs of 400 degrees and 1 pair of 350 degrees!

Drop me an email at simmaybeline@gmail.com

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14th day

2011-12-14T13:22:00.001+08:00

For the first time in 2 weeks, I'm back in my room.

(had refused to sleep in my own room because I am scared. and the room reminds me of Adel too much)

Now, I'm lying on my bed, with her pillow underneath my head. Where are you girl? I'm really depressed.

Last night, a butterfly (or a big moth) flew in. I sat on the floor crying and looked at it for a period of time wondering if it's Adel. It stayed quite still and didn't fly elsewhere for afew hours.

If it's her, she would be able to see how we are coping and dad is sick.

I held roven up for her to see but there was no reaction. I know it seems stupid but I'm desperate. I miss her so much. I have so much to tell her. I blame her, for sticking to a guy like him and ended up with this fate.

No longer rational to think. I have a paper tomorrow and I haven't even started on it. Adel, you're affecting everything. How heartless and cruel can you get?

Why won't you come back?

** updates :

1. Mr Tharman had already sent out letters to the various departments on Monday (according to my knowledge)

2. Lawyers have already drafted up the legal letters

3. IO texted me at 12pm today and asked for the videos that have been circulating among the netizens. (guess he have already receive the letter from Mr Tharman regarding the videos)

Gum recontouring surgery

2011-12-13T19:43:00.005+08:00

Woke up early in the morning for the surgery.
This appointment was made 2 months before I remove my braces.

The dentist told me that I needed this surgery because of my very small teeth.

Look at my can't-wake-up-eyes.

Since I can't eat for afew hours after the sugery, I had a mini can of Nescafe.

Because I had extremely low pain tolerance, I had more than 10 injections of anesthesia.

There was slight pain during the injection but totally painless after that.
I could barely feel the cutting and scraping of gums even though it was VERY VERY bloody.

The two clinic assistants even came over to look at the whole procedure.

The picture below totally reminds me of Adel in A&E.
A tube in her mouth with her eyes half opened.
Dad fell sick last night because of her departure.
Still crying everyday even though I know she won't return anymore.

Really love my dentist. He was very patient with me.
Am going to stick to this dentist for most of my dental related issues until I can find another one I like.

Have yet to take pictures of post-surgery because it is still quite bloody now.

Here is one which I googled :
(it is something like this)

Very satisfied with the overall result :)

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Roro's new shoe.
Adel would skin me alive if she saw what I did to Roven.
She told me 2 weeks ago "NO! Roven can't wear shoes!! Don't you dare buy him any!"

Don't worry, Jie Jie will take very good care of Roro if you promise to take care of yourself wherever you are.